Spot of Wonder #2

Coming out of a very rough patch of sad and death. Today I woke up with a smile and a sappy heart for the first time in about a week. So here's a mussy-haired, freshly awake me signing "I love you."

Because, of course, I do.

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A Personal Note

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Been a long, stressful week. Friends dying, setting boundaries with people, knee injury, emotional highs and lows. I'm drained, stressed, but alive, and alive is worth something. I'm taking it day by day, and trying to be kind to myself.

Optimism is a choice I make every day, and some days it's harder than others. But as much as I hurt, both emotionally and physically; as much as I feel like a walking wound right now, I refuse to give it up. I will not let my pain consume me. I will not lose hope.

I believe in good intentions, empathy, and understanding. It doesn't necessarily make actions okay, or keep people who have hurt me enough from being evicted from my life, but it allows me to keep walking without so much bitterness.

Most of all, though, I believe in hope. I once wrote, "Hope is the surest way to save a life," and that was true. I don't want to imagine a world without hope, even if I have to sew it together from small bits of nature or a single kind word.

I'm hurting, but alive, and I am grateful for that life. Today I choose optimism. Today, I hold onto hope. Today, I live.

Spot of Wonder #1

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Today I found wonder in my cat's sleepy face, and the way he curled up with his toebeans on display. He keeps me sane, and sometimes, on dark days, he keeps me alive.

He's a good cat, too. He's trainable, will cuddle with me for 10 straight hours (I've timed it), and listens when I tell him no. He'll purr at the vet, never go to the bathroom outside the litterbox, and run to the door when I come home. He'll groom my hair, give me kisses, and burrow under my blankets.

My act of self-care today will be to take a little extra time to cuddle my cat and appreciate the joy he brings to my life. What will yours be?

Letter from the Founder #5

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Hey you. I want you to know that your dreams matter, and your hopes for the future. Hope is the surest way to save a life, so find things to hope for.

What do you want to achieve? What is your private fantasy? What do you dream of, late at night, when you stop telling yourself it's impossible? Visualize it. Make it breathable. Then do something small toward it. Walk forward.

Walk forward. Who do you want to be, in this moment? Without your past, without your baggage, without your self-doubt, who do you want to be right now? Breathe in the dream. Breathe out the doubt. Walk forward.

Walk forward. What is the most beautiful place you've never been? How can you get there? What can you do right now toward that? One day at a time, build your dreams. Walk forward.

I love you.